Something I don’t talk about enough is how much I owe Misha Collins
I’ve decided that in honor of Misha’s birthday, I would share something that I haven’t really ever said, and that’s that I owe my life to Misha (and Jensen and Jared)
About two years ago I found myself in a really dark place and a really dark time. I could barely get out of bed each day, none the less leave my room. I spent most of my time behind locked doors crying and hoping for all the pain to stop. I never truly considered harming myself, but I wanted nothing more than to fall into a dark pit and escape my world.
Oddly enough, I kind of did. Now bear with me, but honestly Supernatural saved, and the boys saved me. But mainly, Misha saved me. In a time when I had no one, no desire to move or eat, I didn’t even have myself… I found Supernatural and it gave me something to get up for each day because I had to know what happened next. And within a few days I was on to season 4 and meeting Cas. And I LOVED him! The character of Castiel meant so much to me, and honestly I cared about him more than I did for myself at the time.
And of course I had to know more about these awesome guys, and whoever this “misha” guy was. And I was so incredibly surprised to find that he is/they are just brilliant human beings! If I ever felt alone or sad I knew I could just press “play next episode”, or watch funny videos of them on youtube, or just read Misha’s tweets. These boys, this show, it’s fans… they all became a family to me in a time when I had no one.
Misha’s inspiring positive attitude, outlook on the world, heart warming smile, breath taking talent, and every other beautiful quality of his enormous heart gave me something to make it through each day. I was no longer just surviving, taking one day at a time, I was on the path to living again… to being me again.
I owe so much to Misha and I can only hope to finally thank him for each second he’s given me (whether he knew it or not). But for now, I simply finish with saying:
Happy Birthday Misha, thank you for being you!